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verses read: 1 Samuel 18-20

Home alone; parents have gone overseas. Amazingly, I have lost weight! Despite the Seoul Garden Dinner yesterday, and all the Christmas feasting, my weight has actually gone down.

Received a “good” Christmas present this year, it wasn’t something physical, but rather, it was “good” news. An answered prayer even, but then is it really something that I want answered favourably? Perhaps, perhaps not. After seeing some things yesterday, it is the season of my life to be alone. There is a big task that needs to be done, I wish I wasn’t the one to do it, but I am. But more importantly, need to sort some things out with myself first before moving on.

The new year beckons and a new milestone in life is fast approaching. I really wonder which school I will be posted to. For the first time in a long time, I’ve received advice from people beyond the CF or church circle. It was a good chat yesterday night; set many things in perspective. Go back to TK and it would be rewarding no doubt, but it would be tiring and not why I wanted to teach in the first place. Go to another school and it will be another set of problems. No choice is going to be ideal, just have to make it count. Read a blog that caught my eye about two months ago. And a large part of me wishes that I could go back to TMS, yet I doubt I would. It’s so heartbreaking to read something like that; yet it sounds so familiar.

The new year beckons and it will be an interesting one indeed. So Lord, send me where You need me and not where I want to go. For You know best and You’ve prepared that straight path for me already.

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verses read: 1 Samuel 9-17

It’s Christmas, and what a different Christmas is has been from the previous years. For the first time in a long time I can really feel the Christmas joy, rather than the loneliness of Christmas. Frantically wrote some Christmas cards yesterday and even today, before going to church! Got a lot of chocolates and cards as well. Too many chocolates in fact.

The last ten days have been a rush. The camp was definitely the highlight. I think I’ve clocked a record for the most number of days stayed in church this December, a total of 7 nights; 2 for the NTUCF retreat, 1 for TOFU and 4 for the camp. The new sofa is really nice and comfortable, the new shower areas are also really good! My back didn’t act up as much as before. But I guess it is also from the fact that my back is a lot stronger now due to all the gym work.

What can I say about the camp? The difference can really be felt when you have a dedicated team to stay in the background and cover the whole event in prayer. The response is so much different. And I guess having reached the age when you are not as effective, then that is the more important thing to do. Been compiling the evaluation forms the past few days, nothing unexpected.

Got my results back from NIE, nothing much, I’m probably the lowest in class. But that’s not unexpected as well; not that it matters. What matters is practicum next year.

Been eating too much as usual. Managed to loose weight during the camp. But the last few days have practically erased all that. Back to the gym for me this week. But how do you lose weight when you’ve got another party and an appreciation dinner at Seoul Garden coming up?

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verses read: 1 Samuel 8

It’s amazing how fast December always seems to fly past; before you know it half of it is already gone and there is more to come. And what has happened since the last entry? Had the final assessment for the Semester, which went pretty okay. Interestingly enough all the English teachers drew scenarios which were the toughest; that was a real test.

It’s only mid-December and I’ve already camped in church for 3 nights, and another 4 next week. The NTUCF retreat was just a break from everything, could lay back and take a little time off. But other than that it has been the usual December crunch. At least there is no carolling this year, that would be very tough.

AnnTiC has been happening the last few days, I really wonder how they are doing up north. I wonder if it would have been better for me to be there rather than here. But I guess the memories of last year’s AnnTiC would only re-surface and make things worse.

Camp is next week, followed by a long Christmas weekend. True rest starts then. Re-assignment takes place next year. And a big burden will be lifted from me, one that I’ve carried for too long now.