Paradox

As far as the laws of mathematics refer to reality, they are not certain;
and as far as they are certain, they do not refer to reality - Albert Einstein

Makes a lot of sense. Especially from this side of the classroom.

It's a paradox. The syllabus has been cut by almost 50% since 10 years ago. Yet I am unable to finish it on time. There is so much less to cover, yet it seems people are finding it more difficult. Gone are topics like, APGP, a whole lot of trigonometry, implicit differentiation, functions and vectors.

Time. That's other interesting paradox. It used to be 2 sessions of school. So no possibility of remedials in the afternoons. In other words, we have more time nowadays. Yet the above situation exists.

Why is this so? I am still trying to find out.

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Verses read: Matthew 21:1-11, Psalm 42

Glad I read that Psalm! It is my turn to pray for the school tomorrow morning, and I have found what I need to say to everyone. A real Word in season. 

It's Ash Wednesday, not that we commemorate it. However, the passage from Matthew is closely related to the season of Lent. Just goes to show that those who thought of the Bible reading plan, planned it very well. 

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Matthew 17:14-27, Psalm 37

He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn,
the justice of your cause like the noonday sun.

A Psalm of great comfort to me. Be patient that is what it says, for the Lord will deliver in His time. I remember being SMSed this verse a few years ago out of the blue by a friend. She would pray every night and simply SMS verses out to friends whom she is led to do so. Amazing, for out of the blue, the verse came and reminded me of what to do and what not to do.

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Matthew 15:21-39, Psalm 34

Not been a good week at all. People are usually happy when they see money. However, in the last few days the issue of money just makes me upset. Not because there is too little, but because there is just too much; to collect. 

Checks and balances that just do not speak of efficiency on any level. That just makes me upset. Very upset. Takes away the issue of trust and faith, replacing it with a paper trail and "accountability". Pretty robotic if you asked me. 

14 Feb. Doesn't help that the week ends like this. I wonder what would have been different if things didn't go downhill 3.5 years ago. Would I be happier? Would I be married or perhaps preparing for it? I wouldn't know. The fact is that isn't happening now. I guess I've gotten back into that state of mind where I'm disillusioned with that whole institution. Will thing pass? Or will I simply end up bitter like some out there?

Time, it heals wounds. In His time. 

Testing

Posted a lot of pictures from my phone which did not appear on the blog. Wondering why.

Cycling trip

About to leave for a cycling trip with my Boys. Might update with pictures. Spotting the AQ route today, and the crazy Tampines Bike Trail. 

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Verses read: Matthew 13:24-43, Psalm 31

The question has always been why is there evil in this world. To me, that passage in Matthew does answer that question. It's here to stay, till the end of time. I guess it's a matter of being patient and among ourselves, a matter of inner healing sometimes.

Running out of marker pens. Not funny. Well, I guess this means I have to dig into my bag of tricks, a bag I've not opened since practicum. I guess there is some good out of this operation, forces me to think creatively once again. Or, as in practicum, create out of desperation.

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Verses read: Matthew 11:20-30, Psalm 26

"For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." Yeah, it's a different burden this year. Somehow the weariness of last year was easier to bear. This year it's has been grinding. Somehow, I lack the motivation to do things that I was very enthusiastic about last year. A complete reversal. This verse really jumped out at me today. God's way of answering all the questions in my head. 

Finally rained today, after a long dry spell. More rain to come hopefully, Singapore has suddenly turned into the brown city with all the drying and dying grass. Humidity has been very low recently, guess that's why I've not been perspiring much in class. 

Hopefully that will all change soon. Cooler weather is always nicer. 

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Verses read: Matthew 10:22-42, Psalm 24

I realise that when I start on a 25 day reading plan, sure it is less intimidating, but you end up with a lot less discipline. Back onto the main reading, and going to shift it back to the mornings! 

On another note, it is already February. The NIE trainees are going to come in soon. It was TWO full years ago when I was in their shoes. How I miss practicum, that was when I felt I was most effective as a teacher. Since turning full fledge, that seems to have diminished greatly. So strange, yet a trend that is so real and bizarre. 

I guess I have this blog to remind myself of the call. To remind myself to be that point of difference. TWO years, doesn't seem all that long ago.