verses read: Jeremiah 13:15-27
prayer: 5 minutes
Went to watch Munich today. Very interesting show; has a Schindler’s List kind of feel to it. In fact the main theme of the movie also sounded like the Schindler’s List theme; well both composed by John Williams. The final scene is probably the one that will stay in my mind for a while; it’s not as emotional as the ending of Schindler’s List, but definitely conveys a strong and deliberate message.
Going to pull an all nighter to touch up my thesis. Hopefully it will look a little bit more like a thesis by morning. Not going to have the car again tomorrow; will spend the day touching up my thesis even more!
Tuesday, February 28, 2006
Sunday, February 26, 2006
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verses read: Jeremiah 13:1-11
prayer: 5 minutes
This passage, the Lord uses a linen belt to illustrate what He is going to do to the nation of Israel; and how the nation has behaved. Interesting imagery; double imagery in fact, as later in the passage He tells Jeremiah that like how a belt is used to bind things; so will He bind that nation in suffering.
Long day today. Really tired; don’t know what else to put in here. Going to be another long day tomorrow; but well; looking forward to it.
prayer: 5 minutes
This passage, the Lord uses a linen belt to illustrate what He is going to do to the nation of Israel; and how the nation has behaved. Interesting imagery; double imagery in fact, as later in the passage He tells Jeremiah that like how a belt is used to bind things; so will He bind that nation in suffering.
Long day today. Really tired; don’t know what else to put in here. Going to be another long day tomorrow; but well; looking forward to it.
Thursday, February 23, 2006
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verses read: Jeremiah 11:18-23
prayer: 10 minutes
Spent a large part of the day in school; followed by CG gathering. I guess the main thing is that the death knell of the music ministry has been sounded. It is with great sadness and a very profound sense of humility that it has fallen to me to be the one who has to make the decision to close it down. But it is closing not the result of failure to carry out it’s duty; but because it has fulfilled it and has now become redundant.
What will I tell my seniors? Especially those who met their spouses through the music ministry. Or those whose best memories are the nights spent rehearsing for musicals? Will tell them the truth. The ministry of music has matured enough to be handed back to the fellowship as a whole.
I will have fond memories of the music ministry; as well as sad ones. I remember the days spent at the engineering bridge three years ago; preparing for the Arts musical “No greater love”. Those were days when I hardly drove to school; staying back all the time was very draining. I was to act as some old man; and later on as a Roman Soldier who had to nail the crosses into Jesus’ arms. I still have a picture of the participants of the musical in my room. That seems like such a long time ago.
I remember rehearsing for carolling in the middle of September. Of how we found this strange corner of engineering faculty and would sing Christmas Carols in the middle of practically no where. How passer bys would stop and stare. I remember the retreat held at PMC at the end of that year; 2 guys and something like 11 girls. Was the butt of many jokes that year in PMC.
And I remember the tragic struggle I had when I felt the call to take up the position of chairperson in 2004. The first time I walked home from Parkway Parade in April 2004; to the monster 13 page proposal I wrote. All of it has come up to naught. The BCE was the beginning of the end; and the end is nigh. I remember wondering how I could get the minners involved in something which I myself had problems supporting. My fears would come true and I spent the next 6 months struggling with reconciling the min and the BCE. I failed quite miserably.
The worship project that I am now involved in was a ray of hope, for the min to regain a footing in the VCF. But unfortunately it was postponed to September. I will have to serve in my personal capacity rather than music ministry chair. And so, it will be with great sadness that I will have to recommend the closure of the music ministry to the council next week.
My heart is pained by this decision, but it is one that is a long time in coming. Perhaps the end was sounded before I even matriculated into NUS. The ministry of music is now the responsibility of everyone in the VCF.
prayer: 10 minutes
Spent a large part of the day in school; followed by CG gathering. I guess the main thing is that the death knell of the music ministry has been sounded. It is with great sadness and a very profound sense of humility that it has fallen to me to be the one who has to make the decision to close it down. But it is closing not the result of failure to carry out it’s duty; but because it has fulfilled it and has now become redundant.
What will I tell my seniors? Especially those who met their spouses through the music ministry. Or those whose best memories are the nights spent rehearsing for musicals? Will tell them the truth. The ministry of music has matured enough to be handed back to the fellowship as a whole.
I will have fond memories of the music ministry; as well as sad ones. I remember the days spent at the engineering bridge three years ago; preparing for the Arts musical “No greater love”. Those were days when I hardly drove to school; staying back all the time was very draining. I was to act as some old man; and later on as a Roman Soldier who had to nail the crosses into Jesus’ arms. I still have a picture of the participants of the musical in my room. That seems like such a long time ago.
I remember rehearsing for carolling in the middle of September. Of how we found this strange corner of engineering faculty and would sing Christmas Carols in the middle of practically no where. How passer bys would stop and stare. I remember the retreat held at PMC at the end of that year; 2 guys and something like 11 girls. Was the butt of many jokes that year in PMC.
And I remember the tragic struggle I had when I felt the call to take up the position of chairperson in 2004. The first time I walked home from Parkway Parade in April 2004; to the monster 13 page proposal I wrote. All of it has come up to naught. The BCE was the beginning of the end; and the end is nigh. I remember wondering how I could get the minners involved in something which I myself had problems supporting. My fears would come true and I spent the next 6 months struggling with reconciling the min and the BCE. I failed quite miserably.
The worship project that I am now involved in was a ray of hope, for the min to regain a footing in the VCF. But unfortunately it was postponed to September. I will have to serve in my personal capacity rather than music ministry chair. And so, it will be with great sadness that I will have to recommend the closure of the music ministry to the council next week.
My heart is pained by this decision, but it is one that is a long time in coming. Perhaps the end was sounded before I even matriculated into NUS. The ministry of music is now the responsibility of everyone in the VCF.
Tuesday, February 21, 2006
some pictures...
Saw the stain glass going up at Church last Friday. So I decided to snap some pictures. Very nice stain glass. Looks much better than the drawing.
A view from the inside of the chapel. They were putting up the last panel when I snapped this. The stain glass is mounted on a frame that in behind the outer glass of the church building. So it's not exposed to the elements. But that means... absolutely no running on the chancel as one can potentially crash into and break the glass!
I wonder what effect loud music will have on the stained glass... hope it's not made of glass crystal. Mythbusters actually confirmed that loud music can shatter glass crystal... was very scary to watch that episode! They needed about 106db of the resonance frequency of the glass to shatter it. According to Ashley, One Voice has hit 110db before... will not be funny if we all hit the resonance frequency of the stained glass panel at that volume!!!!!
This was dinner last Friday... at soup spoon at Raffles Places MRT. The soup served in the big sourdough bowl was called "Velvety Mushroom Stragnoff"... just a very fancy euphemism for "Cream of mushroom soup". The ingredients looked simple, will try making this one day.
A view from the inside of the chapel. They were putting up the last panel when I snapped this. The stain glass is mounted on a frame that in behind the outer glass of the church building. So it's not exposed to the elements. But that means... absolutely no running on the chancel as one can potentially crash into and break the glass!
I wonder what effect loud music will have on the stained glass... hope it's not made of glass crystal. Mythbusters actually confirmed that loud music can shatter glass crystal... was very scary to watch that episode! They needed about 106db of the resonance frequency of the glass to shatter it. According to Ashley, One Voice has hit 110db before... will not be funny if we all hit the resonance frequency of the stained glass panel at that volume!!!!!
This was dinner last Friday... at soup spoon at Raffles Places MRT. The soup served in the big sourdough bowl was called "Velvety Mushroom Stragnoff"... just a very fancy euphemism for "Cream of mushroom soup". The ingredients looked simple, will try making this one day.
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verses read: Jeremiah 10:17-25
prayer: 10 minutes
It’s supposed to be the break week for NUS. But having a 2 day week means it doesn’t really make much of a difference for me. Will have to go back to school on Wednesday for angklung rehearsal. Quite an interesting instrument actually; and you can instantly tell who know music and who don’t know music when the group was playing.
My arm is aching from a combination of badminton and making pasta. At this rate, I will lose more weight making the pasta than eating it as it takes a monster effort to come up with even one small portion. But the taste makes it all worth it!
Going to have to complete my thesis tomorrow. Or I will be in hot soup. Next week is the submission deadline. Need to translate my thoughts (which are on paper) onto actually words.
prayer: 10 minutes
It’s supposed to be the break week for NUS. But having a 2 day week means it doesn’t really make much of a difference for me. Will have to go back to school on Wednesday for angklung rehearsal. Quite an interesting instrument actually; and you can instantly tell who know music and who don’t know music when the group was playing.
My arm is aching from a combination of badminton and making pasta. At this rate, I will lose more weight making the pasta than eating it as it takes a monster effort to come up with even one small portion. But the taste makes it all worth it!
Going to have to complete my thesis tomorrow. Or I will be in hot soup. Next week is the submission deadline. Need to translate my thoughts (which are on paper) onto actually words.
Saturday, February 18, 2006
Beef Ball noodle
This is another "what to do with a lot of leftovers" recipe. Last Sunday was the 15th day of CNY. So there was a steamboat at my place. There were a lot of leftovers. In particular there was a lot of stock and some beef balls left. This is what I did; took me 5 minutes to prepare and cook.
Ingredients
- Beef balls
- Mee Sua
- Chicken Stock diluted with water
- Ginger
- Sesame Oil
I grated the ginger and then fried it in sesame oil for about ten seconds. This is to release the flavour; trust me the smell was out of this world!!!!! When the ginger started to brown (which took 10 secs) I poured in the chicken stock and water (about 1:1 parts) and brought it a boil.
Throw in the beef balls until cook and bring the whole thing to a boil. Place the mee sua in a bowl; DO NOT BOIL IT ALONG WITH THE STOCK. Just pour the stock beef balls etc into the bowl. Boiling the mee sua will just make it way too soft.
I topped it off with some fried shallots. All in all, it took me 5 minutes to prepare. A bit heavy on the carbo for me. But after hardly eating anything the last 2 days and a 2 hour badminton game; my body was crying out of food. So when you have to eat; just got to eat! Pretty sure this is better than instant noodles!
Ingredients
- Beef balls
- Mee Sua
- Chicken Stock diluted with water
- Ginger
- Sesame Oil
I grated the ginger and then fried it in sesame oil for about ten seconds. This is to release the flavour; trust me the smell was out of this world!!!!! When the ginger started to brown (which took 10 secs) I poured in the chicken stock and water (about 1:1 parts) and brought it a boil.
Throw in the beef balls until cook and bring the whole thing to a boil. Place the mee sua in a bowl; DO NOT BOIL IT ALONG WITH THE STOCK. Just pour the stock beef balls etc into the bowl. Boiling the mee sua will just make it way too soft.
I topped it off with some fried shallots. All in all, it took me 5 minutes to prepare. A bit heavy on the carbo for me. But after hardly eating anything the last 2 days and a 2 hour badminton game; my body was crying out of food. So when you have to eat; just got to eat! Pretty sure this is better than instant noodles!
180206
verses read: Jeremiah 9:12-26
prayer: 5 minutes
SG yesterday was super fun. Did not finish the intended material had to make a huge but important digression midway through. Well, it was fun.
Today was a very long and tiring day. Had a game of badminton in the morning. I was wondering why I was feeling so tired only after 15 minutes of play; I was able to last very much longer the last time as my stamina had increased a lot since I started going to the gym often. I only realised when I got home that I had not been drinking enough water the last few day and my body was already dehydrated and was close to heat exhaustion. Drank a lot, then fell asleep for nearly the whole afternoon. Just came home from worship rehearsal. Things are definitely getting better and better. March will be the start; whether or not the chapel is ready the full band returns in March.
prayer: 5 minutes
SG yesterday was super fun. Did not finish the intended material had to make a huge but important digression midway through. Well, it was fun.
Today was a very long and tiring day. Had a game of badminton in the morning. I was wondering why I was feeling so tired only after 15 minutes of play; I was able to last very much longer the last time as my stamina had increased a lot since I started going to the gym often. I only realised when I got home that I had not been drinking enough water the last few day and my body was already dehydrated and was close to heat exhaustion. Drank a lot, then fell asleep for nearly the whole afternoon. Just came home from worship rehearsal. Things are definitely getting better and better. March will be the start; whether or not the chapel is ready the full band returns in March.
Friday, February 17, 2006
170206
verses read: Jeremiah 9:1-11
prayer: 5 minutes
The first part of the passage hints a little at some mercy and relief; but then after that it just goes back to the same theme of destruction and despair. This book is really a very depressing read. Very hard to read a few chapters at a time. Have to go slow, like 10 verses a day or it will just overwhelm you after a while.
Classes were cancelled today. Well, going to the gym later as usual then there is SG tonight. There’s badminton tomorrow as well. Tried making the fresh pasta again, getting better at it but will need a bit more time.
prayer: 5 minutes
The first part of the passage hints a little at some mercy and relief; but then after that it just goes back to the same theme of destruction and despair. This book is really a very depressing read. Very hard to read a few chapters at a time. Have to go slow, like 10 verses a day or it will just overwhelm you after a while.
Classes were cancelled today. Well, going to the gym later as usual then there is SG tonight. There’s badminton tomorrow as well. Tried making the fresh pasta again, getting better at it but will need a bit more time.
Thursday, February 16, 2006
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verses read: Jeremiah 8
prayer: 5 minutes
These few chapters is all about the same thing. Warning after repeated warning and yet no one heeds the warnings. Sounds like what happens now isn’t it. There are so many warning signs everywhere, but we always want to “test water” to see how far we can go. And in the end we go past the point of no return and regret what we’ve done.
Seems so simple to just obey. But in reality it is so tough. Was brought up at CG yesterday. Perhaps I would just add here that I am really starting to think that it amounts to stupidity if we fail to heed warning signs. Well, guess I am one of the many who would fall in that category.
Just got home from school and the gym. Went to marinate a few fillets of fish for dinner. Trying out a new recipe; will post pictures up some other time.
*yesterday's post*
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verses read: Jeremiah 7
prayer: 5 minutes
I’ve nothing to write really. Today is just going to be one of the two days I’m in school. That’s about it. Well, there’s CG tonight. Other than that, nothing else that I can note down.
prayer: 5 minutes
These few chapters is all about the same thing. Warning after repeated warning and yet no one heeds the warnings. Sounds like what happens now isn’t it. There are so many warning signs everywhere, but we always want to “test water” to see how far we can go. And in the end we go past the point of no return and regret what we’ve done.
Seems so simple to just obey. But in reality it is so tough. Was brought up at CG yesterday. Perhaps I would just add here that I am really starting to think that it amounts to stupidity if we fail to heed warning signs. Well, guess I am one of the many who would fall in that category.
Just got home from school and the gym. Went to marinate a few fillets of fish for dinner. Trying out a new recipe; will post pictures up some other time.
*yesterday's post*
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verses read: Jeremiah 7
prayer: 5 minutes
I’ve nothing to write really. Today is just going to be one of the two days I’m in school. That’s about it. Well, there’s CG tonight. Other than that, nothing else that I can note down.
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
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verses read: Jeremiah 6:16-30
prayer: 10 minutes
The above passage concludes 6 chapters of very depressing reading. Nearly every verse is doom and gloom. It’s either about how unfaithful Israel has been or about how the Lord will destroy the nation. Very graphic in nature actually.
Valentine’s Day. Not that I care anymore actually. Just going to spend it the usual way; doing my thesis, going to the gym and cooking some food. Well, that’s life.
Went to Tampines to cash in my ang pow money yesterday, took a walk around TM and CS. Decided not to get an Xbox anymore; instead was looking at either a PSP or a GBA again. Realised the DS would actually make more sense; and with the DS lite coming out it would just nice. Then I went home, surfed the net and realised that I can download some pretty interesting games into my phone and that would solve all my problems. So I did. Downloaded Age of Empires II into my phone; much cheaper alternative than all the above.
prayer: 10 minutes
The above passage concludes 6 chapters of very depressing reading. Nearly every verse is doom and gloom. It’s either about how unfaithful Israel has been or about how the Lord will destroy the nation. Very graphic in nature actually.
Valentine’s Day. Not that I care anymore actually. Just going to spend it the usual way; doing my thesis, going to the gym and cooking some food. Well, that’s life.
Went to Tampines to cash in my ang pow money yesterday, took a walk around TM and CS. Decided not to get an Xbox anymore; instead was looking at either a PSP or a GBA again. Realised the DS would actually make more sense; and with the DS lite coming out it would just nice. Then I went home, surfed the net and realised that I can download some pretty interesting games into my phone and that would solve all my problems. So I did. Downloaded Age of Empires II into my phone; much cheaper alternative than all the above.
Monday, February 13, 2006
Don't know what to call this dish; guess you can call it "leftovers" or something. Spotted an offensive looking can of mayonaise in the fridge and some dried pasta in the cupboard. Needed to get rid of them.
Need:
Mayonaise
Pasta
Tuna
Cheese
Combine the tuna and mayo in a baking dish. Flake the tuna and mix it well with the mayo to get something like a chunkier form of tuna mayo. Don't have to flake the tuna till its completely minced; but I guess you could.
Boil the pasta. Once it was cooked; I added it batch by batch into the baking dish with the tuna. I mixed it up well before putting in the next layer of pasta. Reason I did this was due to the size of the dish and the amount of pasta; wanted the tuna to be well distributed in the pasta.
Then I topped the whole dish off with cheese. Something like making a lagsane. (As a side note; one day I have to try Bishop Solomon's lagsane! The video is too good!) I used two types of cheese, mozerella and cheddar. The more yellowish one is the cheddar.
I then baked it till the cheese melted and looked good! (That took about 30 minutes)
It will be quite sometime before I eat anything like this again. Got a new pasta machine from my aunt... so no more dried pasta for me. Making everything fresh from now on. That way I know what goes into my food! You tend to eat less as well; knowing the kind of cleaning up you have to do!
Need:
Mayonaise
Pasta
Tuna
Cheese
Combine the tuna and mayo in a baking dish. Flake the tuna and mix it well with the mayo to get something like a chunkier form of tuna mayo. Don't have to flake the tuna till its completely minced; but I guess you could.
Boil the pasta. Once it was cooked; I added it batch by batch into the baking dish with the tuna. I mixed it up well before putting in the next layer of pasta. Reason I did this was due to the size of the dish and the amount of pasta; wanted the tuna to be well distributed in the pasta.
Then I topped the whole dish off with cheese. Something like making a lagsane. (As a side note; one day I have to try Bishop Solomon's lagsane! The video is too good!) I used two types of cheese, mozerella and cheddar. The more yellowish one is the cheddar.
I then baked it till the cheese melted and looked good! (That took about 30 minutes)
It will be quite sometime before I eat anything like this again. Got a new pasta machine from my aunt... so no more dried pasta for me. Making everything fresh from now on. That way I know what goes into my food! You tend to eat less as well; knowing the kind of cleaning up you have to do!
130206
verses read: Jeremiah 6:1-15
prayer: 5 minutes
Chinese New Year is finally over. Can restart my diet again; been eating too much last few weeks. Today is one lunar year to the day in which everything went down the drain for me. It’s been a long time. Can still remember those words that were spoken to me at the engineering bridge. It was the start of something long and painful; but like all trials, they only serve to build up your faith.
My time in exile has come to an end; and immediately the Lord’s work has begun to pile up on me again. Double headache! Supposed to be coordinating something for FES; and somehow God’s hand has mad me the liaisons for the venue as well. Well; this is work that I completely welcome; a chance of a lifetime to serve the Church in such a big way is an answer to my dreams. Perhaps; like what happened after the day in engineering bridge, another dream can come to reality.
The other headache I have is in opening up my ang pows. I only open on the fifteenth day and this year I carried an empty wallet around so that I won’t be tempted to gamble. Well; I did a little; my cousin had asked me to take over him for two rounds of blackjack; won a bit for him but didn’t take anything home.
Going to start my yearly accounting session in a while. After that; I have a commitment to the Lord to keep regarding the use of all this. Was challenged to exercise my faith in a way that more than just lip service. May it be for His glory; given in faith and thanksgiving.
*this is yesterday's post; a little inappropriate for the blog but I will put it up here to humour myself anyway*
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verses read: Jeremiah 5:18-31
prayer: 5 minutes
God promises some measure of mercy even in the midst of all the destruction he has promised. There is a whole passage on how much the nation has disobeyed; on how much this disobedience cannot be tolerated by God. But even then, He promises mercy. And that was what happened.
Marcus Khoo, what were you thinking? Did something really really stupid and comical last night. I really don’t know why I did that. I’m still a little shaken by what I did. I’m not depressed or anything, just shocked that I actually did that. In fact I’m laughing at my brashness. Was it a spark? Or was it water dousing out embers?
Why am I feeling this way? Is it correct? It’s a familiar feeling that I felt before although I’ve only acted on that feeling only once before. Like what God told me the other day, the plane I was on did not crash and burn, it landed safely after being damaged by turbulence.
A part of me is reluctant to get off the plane; hoping that whatever damage would not be irreparable. Maybe it will take off again but I don’t really know. It is still the night; and my exile is coming to an end and like the Lord said; something will happen at the end of this time of personal retreat. Today is the last day of this retreat; been out of frontline ministry for a while; but I returned today. And like it says in the Psalms, though the sorrow will last for the night, rejoicing will come in the morning.
An airport is deserted at night. But the planes start coming in during the day. The dawn is approaching, and maybe that’s why other planes have landed waiting to take off again. That’s what I was told. Interestingly this whole thing started on Thursday afternoon; one day after the Lord told me all this.
Well, the time ahead is going to be interesting; I cannot bluff myself or be in denial again. Time will show if this is the way to go. So I will let the Lord lead in this matter. It seems so far fetched again; but well; the love of God is the example. We love because He first loved us.
Sunday, February 12, 2006
Because I don't know...
Every beat of my heart
So here we stand anchored in hope
Letting the rain wash away every fear
Stars in the sky twinkle and shine
I pray they won't disappear
Cause' I don't know where your journey goes
Or how long it will take to unfold
But as long as we keep this moment shining in the dark
I will be watching over every beat of your heart
I wish that time could be replayed
I'd keep you here with me everyday
They say that love is letting go
I hope that you find your way
Cause' I don't know where your journey goes
Or how long it will take to unfold
But as long as keep this moment shining in the dark
I know you're watching every beat of my heart
(C) words and music by Corrine May
Shedding tears once again as I type the lyrics of this song. But this time; I'm choosing to let this be the last time I'm going to cry. Just came back from Fusion. Choosing to say that the past is dead; and that I'm now alive in Christ. And that has a very powerful implication. So I'm going to let the past die, once and for all. And every time it come creeping back up; going to put it back it in proper place; the grave.
Still have 5 months to go. A promise I made to the Lord. So I will keep my promise; remain true to this choice that I made. So; as the river of time continues to run, I'm going to move along with it; maybe the answers will come maybe they won't. But at the end of it all; I will fear the Lord for that is the beginning of wisdom.
Love; true love, true Christ-like unconditional love, is a fruit of the Spirit. I'm sure right now that it was not just human love but something deeper that is drove me; is driving me. So let go and move on.
Dear Lord,
Teach us how to pray in uncertainties and adversities. teach us to pray even when it seems irrational and even when we're so down we cannot think of anything good to say or do. teach us to give thanks for the little and seemingly insignificant events in our lives.. because now we see your continual provision and love.... you let us go through events in our lives to build us up and bring our lives a little closer each day. for that i really want to thank you. :)
In Jesus Name I pray. Amen.
*post dated to th 15th day of the Nw lunar year; which will be a significant date for me. Original date of posting: 21 Jan 2006, Fusion 2006. Regular posts will still be posted beneath this one*
So here we stand anchored in hope
Letting the rain wash away every fear
Stars in the sky twinkle and shine
I pray they won't disappear
Cause' I don't know where your journey goes
Or how long it will take to unfold
But as long as we keep this moment shining in the dark
I will be watching over every beat of your heart
I wish that time could be replayed
I'd keep you here with me everyday
They say that love is letting go
I hope that you find your way
Cause' I don't know where your journey goes
Or how long it will take to unfold
But as long as keep this moment shining in the dark
I know you're watching every beat of my heart
(C) words and music by Corrine May
Shedding tears once again as I type the lyrics of this song. But this time; I'm choosing to let this be the last time I'm going to cry. Just came back from Fusion. Choosing to say that the past is dead; and that I'm now alive in Christ. And that has a very powerful implication. So I'm going to let the past die, once and for all. And every time it come creeping back up; going to put it back it in proper place; the grave.
Still have 5 months to go. A promise I made to the Lord. So I will keep my promise; remain true to this choice that I made. So; as the river of time continues to run, I'm going to move along with it; maybe the answers will come maybe they won't. But at the end of it all; I will fear the Lord for that is the beginning of wisdom.
Love; true love, true Christ-like unconditional love, is a fruit of the Spirit. I'm sure right now that it was not just human love but something deeper that is drove me; is driving me. So let go and move on.
Dear Lord,
Teach us how to pray in uncertainties and adversities. teach us to pray even when it seems irrational and even when we're so down we cannot think of anything good to say or do. teach us to give thanks for the little and seemingly insignificant events in our lives.. because now we see your continual provision and love.... you let us go through events in our lives to build us up and bring our lives a little closer each day. for that i really want to thank you. :)
In Jesus Name I pray. Amen.
I don't know what will happen next, I only who controls it...
*post dated to th 15th day of the Nw lunar year; which will be a significant date for me. Original date of posting: 21 Jan 2006, Fusion 2006. Regular posts will still be posted beneath this one*
Saturday, February 11, 2006
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verses read: Jeremiah 5:1-17
prayer: 10 minutes
In this passage, the Lord spells out quite plainly the sins of Israel and goes on to describe quite explicitly what will happen to them and who will come to conquer them. Very painful passage to read actually. The term “backslide” is actually taken from this book. But it means more than its current meaning; it actually means something closer to apostasy and that is actually very terrible.
Yesterday was a very gratifying day. My interview with MOE went well; I think. I was the last interviewee for the day and (to me at least) the interview felt like it lasted 5 minutes. I don’t think that’s a good sign. But they looked quite happy and were even laughing at some of my replies; so I really don’t know. Anyway, I was prepped very well by my aunt who told me the kind of questions that would be asked if she were on the interview panel. True enough they indeed asked a lot of those questions. Including the one about me being accepted way back in 2000. That’s actually quite a blemish to my record; but well. I will know in a few weeks time.
Later spent a few hours in the library doing my thesis. I’ve completed it. At least the two main results; but I will need to verify the proofs with A/P Leung and put it into writing after that. Then with the remaining two weeks, see what other results I can add in. I hope to add at last two more results to give my work some meat; at the moment it’s quite thin and honestly too little for my liking.
Today; practice at night. It will be the first time I will be leading worship at youth since last September. Nice long break. I really needed it. We’ll see what happens after that.
prayer: 10 minutes
In this passage, the Lord spells out quite plainly the sins of Israel and goes on to describe quite explicitly what will happen to them and who will come to conquer them. Very painful passage to read actually. The term “backslide” is actually taken from this book. But it means more than its current meaning; it actually means something closer to apostasy and that is actually very terrible.
Yesterday was a very gratifying day. My interview with MOE went well; I think. I was the last interviewee for the day and (to me at least) the interview felt like it lasted 5 minutes. I don’t think that’s a good sign. But they looked quite happy and were even laughing at some of my replies; so I really don’t know. Anyway, I was prepped very well by my aunt who told me the kind of questions that would be asked if she were on the interview panel. True enough they indeed asked a lot of those questions. Including the one about me being accepted way back in 2000. That’s actually quite a blemish to my record; but well. I will know in a few weeks time.
Later spent a few hours in the library doing my thesis. I’ve completed it. At least the two main results; but I will need to verify the proofs with A/P Leung and put it into writing after that. Then with the remaining two weeks, see what other results I can add in. I hope to add at last two more results to give my work some meat; at the moment it’s quite thin and honestly too little for my liking.
Today; practice at night. It will be the first time I will be leading worship at youth since last September. Nice long break. I really needed it. We’ll see what happens after that.
Friday, February 10, 2006
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verses read: Jeremiah 5:1-6
prayer: 5 minutes
I am still wondering what happened yesterday. My heart is really feeling weird, on one hand it strangely warmed, on another hand it feels like it’s in a mess. Felt like this before; almost exactly a year ago to be precise. But well, will let the Lord reveal His way for me. Today is my interview; going to be interesting.
prayer: 5 minutes
I am still wondering what happened yesterday. My heart is really feeling weird, on one hand it strangely warmed, on another hand it feels like it’s in a mess. Felt like this before; almost exactly a year ago to be precise. But well, will let the Lord reveal His way for me. Today is my interview; going to be interesting.
Thursday, February 09, 2006
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verses read: Jeremiah 4:23-31
prayer: 5 minutes
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prayer: 5 minutes
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Wednesday, February 08, 2006
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verses read: Jeremiah 4:10-22
prayer: 5 minutes
Somehow, I don’t have any idea of what to write now. Maybe will get more inspired through the day or something. Been eating too much, I should stay away from food for the rest of the day; need to cut my weight down by a few kilos again.
prayer: 5 minutes
Somehow, I don’t have any idea of what to write now. Maybe will get more inspired through the day or something. Been eating too much, I should stay away from food for the rest of the day; need to cut my weight down by a few kilos again.
Tuesday, February 07, 2006
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verses read: Jeremiah 4:1-9
prayer: 5 minutes
The Lord warns Israel again to return to Him; and He also warns them about impending disaster from the north if He is not obeyed. As history goes, Israel was destroyed by the Babylonians.
I received my MOE interview date yesterday. God is very gracious; answering my prayers and providing me with a second chance at this. Have been short listed to teach Mathematics and English, which is what I’ve wanted all along, even before coming into NUS! Was quite worried that I would be asked to teach physics; a subject that I’m quite hopeless in. So my guess is that they looked at my O level and A level results and realised that I’m really not up to that task; even though all the physics modules I took in NUS scored very well. I wonder if Design and Technology is a subject that is offered anymore, because that is my other A1 which is in fact better than my English results. But then, I’m not complaining. Very happy and glad at this turn of events! Interview is on Friday, will be the second time I’m facing the interview panel, I really wonder what they will say to that.
Pulled another 4.30am night yesterday. Needed to write my thesis in earnest! Got two more parts to go before I complete this chapter. Then I will begin work on the next chapter. Hopefully I can finish typing my first draft by next weekend. That will give me two more weeks to review more results and add more meat to my thesis before handing it up during the first submission. These late nights are probably going to get a lot more common in this month.
Tonight is FT; but will stay for a short while only. Have to attend to another function after that. But better than nothing.
prayer: 5 minutes
The Lord warns Israel again to return to Him; and He also warns them about impending disaster from the north if He is not obeyed. As history goes, Israel was destroyed by the Babylonians.
I received my MOE interview date yesterday. God is very gracious; answering my prayers and providing me with a second chance at this. Have been short listed to teach Mathematics and English, which is what I’ve wanted all along, even before coming into NUS! Was quite worried that I would be asked to teach physics; a subject that I’m quite hopeless in. So my guess is that they looked at my O level and A level results and realised that I’m really not up to that task; even though all the physics modules I took in NUS scored very well. I wonder if Design and Technology is a subject that is offered anymore, because that is my other A1 which is in fact better than my English results. But then, I’m not complaining. Very happy and glad at this turn of events! Interview is on Friday, will be the second time I’m facing the interview panel, I really wonder what they will say to that.
Pulled another 4.30am night yesterday. Needed to write my thesis in earnest! Got two more parts to go before I complete this chapter. Then I will begin work on the next chapter. Hopefully I can finish typing my first draft by next weekend. That will give me two more weeks to review more results and add more meat to my thesis before handing it up during the first submission. These late nights are probably going to get a lot more common in this month.
Tonight is FT; but will stay for a short while only. Have to attend to another function after that. But better than nothing.
Monday, February 06, 2006
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verses read: Jeremiah 3:6-25
prayer: 5 minutes
This chapter, the Lord reckons Israel and Judah to be unfaithful wives. Very much like what was going on in the book of Hosea. He pronounces severe judgement on the 2 nations, yet the Lord is merciful and offers a way out. Then Jeremiah proclaims this prophecy to the nations.
I need to get my thesis done very soon or get into some serious trouble. Going to try my best to finish typing out 2 proofs today. Will take some time, but no choice. Also need to continue with the other main theorem. Have 3 weeks left to do so.
prayer: 5 minutes
This chapter, the Lord reckons Israel and Judah to be unfaithful wives. Very much like what was going on in the book of Hosea. He pronounces severe judgement on the 2 nations, yet the Lord is merciful and offers a way out. Then Jeremiah proclaims this prophecy to the nations.
I need to get my thesis done very soon or get into some serious trouble. Going to try my best to finish typing out 2 proofs today. Will take some time, but no choice. Also need to continue with the other main theorem. Have 3 weeks left to do so.
Friday, February 03, 2006
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verses read: Jeremiah 2:1-19
prayer: 10 minutes
This is the beginning of a long section in which the Lord rebukes the nation of Israel. Quite scary to read really. The prophet’s role is something I’m not too particularly envious about.
Today is a free day. Going to the gym, going to try eat a little today as I’ve been gorging the last few days. Then will head to the city; thinking of going to City Music to see if the XT live bag is available yet. Thinking of singing up for piano classes as well; but will probably do that once my thesis is more or less settled. Then it’s SG at night in church. Long day. Need to spend sometime to plan the Bible Study for tomorrow as well.
prayer: 10 minutes
This is the beginning of a long section in which the Lord rebukes the nation of Israel. Quite scary to read really. The prophet’s role is something I’m not too particularly envious about.
Today is a free day. Going to the gym, going to try eat a little today as I’ve been gorging the last few days. Then will head to the city; thinking of going to City Music to see if the XT live bag is available yet. Thinking of singing up for piano classes as well; but will probably do that once my thesis is more or less settled. Then it’s SG at night in church. Long day. Need to spend sometime to plan the Bible Study for tomorrow as well.
Thursday, February 02, 2006
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verses read: Jeremiah 1
prayer: 5 minutes
Was reading the table of contents when the book of Jeremiah seemed to jump out at me. So I’ve decided to make this book my next set of reading. So, from one of the shortest books to one of the longest. Seems pretty sensible. According to my Study Bible, the book of Jeremiah is the longest book in terms of number of words. But I guess that also depends on which translation.
Chapter one is about Jeremiah’s call to become a prophet. He was called to his office even before he was born, makes you wonder what God was doing with us even before we ourselves came into this world. He was called to pronounce bad news against Israel for their sin of turning away from God.
Today was pretty alright day. Had my midterm progress talk, which went fine. Then had council meeting at night. Got home and am now typing this entry. Didn’t go to the gym as I didn’t really have time to. But will be going to tomorrow. Been putting on weight, and that’s not very acceptable.
prayer: 5 minutes
Was reading the table of contents when the book of Jeremiah seemed to jump out at me. So I’ve decided to make this book my next set of reading. So, from one of the shortest books to one of the longest. Seems pretty sensible. According to my Study Bible, the book of Jeremiah is the longest book in terms of number of words. But I guess that also depends on which translation.
Chapter one is about Jeremiah’s call to become a prophet. He was called to his office even before he was born, makes you wonder what God was doing with us even before we ourselves came into this world. He was called to pronounce bad news against Israel for their sin of turning away from God.
Today was pretty alright day. Had my midterm progress talk, which went fine. Then had council meeting at night. Got home and am now typing this entry. Didn’t go to the gym as I didn’t really have time to. But will be going to tomorrow. Been putting on weight, and that’s not very acceptable.
Wednesday, February 01, 2006
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verses read: 3 John
prayer: 5 minutes
Another short book. This one was written to a certain person in the early church to commend for standing firm in face of behaviour which wasn’t indicative of love. An early church leader had adopted a dictatorial approach in the way he led his church. But the basic core of the book is to show love to each other. That seems to be the key theme in all three of John’s letters and his gospel. That showing love to one another and to God is what should set us apart.
My weight is up due to the Chinese New Year holidays. Going to head to the gym today, then to buy some food to prepare a lot of salad. Going to survive on that for the next few days. My only lesson today has been cancelled, so I don’t think I will b heading to school today. Need to stay at home and prepare for my honours progress talk tomorrow.
prayer: 5 minutes
Another short book. This one was written to a certain person in the early church to commend for standing firm in face of behaviour which wasn’t indicative of love. An early church leader had adopted a dictatorial approach in the way he led his church. But the basic core of the book is to show love to each other. That seems to be the key theme in all three of John’s letters and his gospel. That showing love to one another and to God is what should set us apart.
My weight is up due to the Chinese New Year holidays. Going to head to the gym today, then to buy some food to prepare a lot of salad. Going to survive on that for the next few days. My only lesson today has been cancelled, so I don’t think I will b heading to school today. Need to stay at home and prepare for my honours progress talk tomorrow.
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