That's a lot of books!

The first day of the holidays is over. :(

Spent most of the day packing books in anticipation for a move to the new house. Spent about an hour in school setting up the SMO venue. 

Took out all the books that I read in my teenage to NS years. In primary school, I was reading Robotech books at the rate of a per 2 days, later that year I started on the Lone Wolf gamebooks. Then came some of the D&D in secondary school; dark days indeed. Then all the Star Wars stuff in JC. That's a lot of books! Going to sell some of them on ebay. I cannot keep all that!

Time to let it go

Tonight is the Varsity Christian Fellowship AGM. However, I won't be going down. It's been two years since I've graduated from NUS and it really seems like yesterday. Two years ago I was in Boston on pretty much a graduation trip, now I waiting for my marking load to arrive in a little over 12 hours. 

The VCF days were well spent ones, ones where I had to let go of church committments to gain a greater understanding of ministry and service. It served me well. There are many things I will look back with fondness of my VCF days, but it is time to say goodbye to those days. So, my absence from the AGM is a way of telling me to say goodbye to that past. A past that does have some very painful memories. One that I wish to forget, yet I know I never will. 

The NIE trainees are back at NIE. It was a year ago when I was in their shoes. All eager and enthusiastic to start work in a new school. But a year on and things have changed. The whole complexion of the ministry has changed. To be a point of difference, that was my post a year ago, but now, trying to be different is a bed of nails. Yet I know I must love to break a world indifferent. 

So once again, I had to let go of church committments to take on greater ones. The whole purpose is to be more effective in my new ministry, yet I am not effective. Neither in church or school. So what's the purpose of all this? It's time for another long walk I guess. Decided to take a long cycle along East Coast Park just now, the scene of my long walk almost 4 years ago. But I know the Lord will be silent for another 6 months at least. Where do I go from here? Nowhere. I will stay. 

It is very different to sing "Declare His glory" as a student and again as a working adult. It makes a lot more sense now. 

For the earth will be filled with the knowledge of the glory of the Lord as the waters cover the sea.  - Habbakuk 2:14

home alone... again!!!

My brother has returned to the states for graduation. My parents have followed him there. So I am home alone. Again. This time I have not one but two houses to take care of. Can never get use to staying at home alone. The last time I was at home alone, I woke up late one morning and ended rushing to school. 

Been a short week for me. Not due to happy circumstances unfortunately. Life moves on, though in a different way for many. Though we are sad, we are joyful. Though we mourn, we do not grief.