...the journey's ended. At least for now.
It rained today. At last, some welcome relief from this crazy heat spell. The SCDF has sure been busy last few weeks, 17 fires on the average per day. WOW...
But it rained today. Perhaps, this marks the change of seasons, the monsoon season has come. Cool refreshing rain has come to water this parched and thirsty land.
Perhaps this marks a new beginning for me as well. I realised that I have been under some kind of trial the past one year. It started after Powerpoint last year. It ended last night. Fitting I guess, one praise and worship night to another. One whole year and one month.
Life was brutal the past one year. A tough and crazy trial. But what doesn't destroy your faith, will only serve to build it up even more. And I have received the crown of life that was promised.
Happiness, joy, gladness. Not felt these things for a long time. But I have received back again today. For the first time in over a year, I am happy, joyful and glad. And I think it shows on my face.
I was afflicted in every way, but not crushed; perplexed, but not dispairing; persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down but not destroyed. Traded the sorrows, the pain, the sickness, the shame for the JOY of the Lord. AND IT FEELS GOOD!
At last, I feel release, release from the sins, the lust, the lies and the fantasies. I've let the rains coming again to quench my very dried up soul. It feels good. I feel good. Life is good. And it will be even better in the next!!!
The cost I paid, hurt. It still hurts. But the wounds are mending. Let go. And I let her go. Life goes on, it always does. But not the way I want it.
"Truly I say to you, unless a grain of wheat falls into the earth and dies, it remains alone; but if it dies, it bears much fruit. He who loves life loses it, and he who hates his life in this world will keep it to life eternal." - John 12:24-25
A journey of a thousand miles
Must end with a final step
A roar of thunderous applause
Must end with a final clap
The final word we all must face is
Simple perhaps
The journey's end is not too far
Can we see it clear
The final page when written will
Answer all our fears
Will we leave this world finally
With regret and tears
And Life is brief and fleeting
What dreams will we be chasing
We cannot stop time's passing
Is there some lasting meaning
I'm sure, there must be
Something more to life
I'm sure there must be
Something greater
I'm sure someday
We'll cease from all this strive
If we could only believe in
Forever
Lord, You are my healer
Lord, take my endeavours
Lord, I choose to surrender
I'm sure, there must be
Something more to life
I'm sure there must be
Something greater
I'm sure someday
We'll cease from all this strive
If we could only believe in
Forever
O Lord, I choose to believe in forever
Words: Gabriel Koh
Music: Lin Junwen
O Lord, I choose to believe in forever! No living for today, no forsaking of tomorrow, no spinning, no chasing the wind. Just falling. Falling back, into our arms of love and life again. Amen.
