It's one day after the Go4th conference, and I really have to say, my heart was strangely warmed. God laid down many challenges for me during the conference. It was a very similar situation during the last missions conference I attended, the Joshua 21 Fever 03 conference in Decemeber 2003.
I remember at the end of that conference, I was so fired up I immediately signed up for the CoSI trip in June 2004. Well, as the situation would have it, I wasn't able to make the trip in the end. The GAP Camp clashed with the trip, and I felt that I needed to be around. But I was in charge of the logistics, local side. What a nightmare that turned out to be, through no fault of PMC. The worse was definately the salvage mission early one morning to Kranji. Hear that some of the stuff we packed into that container are either damaged beyond repair or are still unopened. But anyway, the short story is that I missed the trip. And I sure wasn't called to make the trip this year. But I guess, all along I have asking God where I should go and when. Maybe MEET may beckon.
"Life transformation through prayer and discipleship". Well, I have been praying and God has been answering, even when I was in Australia a few ago. The biggest thing I need to do to get out of my comfort zone. So I said, "OK, what next." The reply was very shocking; AnnTiC.
If you had asked me on Friday night, or even Saturday morning whether I would go to AnnTiC I would have given you a flat, "NO!" But on Saturday morning, during the plenary, God once again told me to get out of my comfort zone. I felt really puzzled. So I SMSed Kelvin (Tan) and Amy similar questions, "What were the dates of LPC/AnnTiC in december." Well, they are direct clashes. And that was what God was challenging me.
It's very easy for me to stand in front of the Youth, and conduct a workshop on worship leading (which would have been my role at LTC for sure), very easy for me to stand in front at the camp and give instructions. But it is very much out of my comfort zone to leave Singapore and the comforts of home, go to Malaysia and attend a camp overseas where I am not in the "frontline" of things but rather a normal participant. And that was what God was challenging me. Really strange.
So I talked to AmBer this afternoon, and told them that they needed to release me on a few things, one of which was the LTC, another is of course from my ministry in the YM (will explain later perhaps). Joshua later said to me something which took as confirmation of what I needed to do this December. So, AnnTiC com, looks like you have your first participant! (I think)
Another thing which God spoke to me was regards to where I can look to find my first mission trip. 2 possible fields were revealed (actually one of them was revealed last year at the ONE conference at BRMC), one was local the other overseas. I can only trust God and see what He has in store for me.
The future is interesting; I'm actually looking foward to it! Even my ministry within PMC was challenged. Well, I do not know what is in store, but I doubt it is with any worship team. I've gotten to comfortable there, need to get away from it. But well, only when the time comes, and till then, I'm not going to move. I will not go where the Spirit of the Lord has not yet moved.
