Here are the entries that were missing during the days I was away. In some sense, they are still missing... I guess having journalled them into a hardcopy journal allowed for some things that should not go on this blog. So they won't.
061205
verses read: Daniel 8:1-14
prayer 15 minutes
Daniel receives another vision, about a goat and a ram. The vision is really weird. Tomorrow, I will read the interpretation. Quite apt, because today’s theme talk will be on the things God has revealed.
Coming here is really a challenge, my back is starting to hurt. All I can do is pray that the pain will slowly subside. I don’t know what to pray actually. But I will just pray for the things that should be done, and the things that should not be done, I pray for the strength to be able to resist them.
I’m tired, just want to go home, but there is still a lot more to come. I’ll stay; ask God to give me opportunities and wisdom to speak.
071205
verses read: Daniel 8:15-27
prayer: 10 minutes
Daniel receives an interpretation to his vision. One told to him by the archangel Gabriel. Its about the end times, about 1 kingdom rising and falling and finally about the antichrist and how he shall reign for a long time. What is interesting is that Daniel falls sick and was ill for many days after receiving this vision. It was as though he was overwhelmed by God. Sounds familiar actually.
Yesterday felt really awkward. But what can I do? I’m still not brutal enough in my resolution to do what I need to do. Today will have to do the same, until Friday I guess. It’s going to feel weird. My mind is not in this camp. Neither is my heart. But I guess the reason I’m here is to get all this right with God. Wish I could go home. But I guess I will just stay and move on. Long are the days ahead, will just bury myself in math during the free times I guess.
081205 / 091205 / 101205
verses read: Daniel 9:1 - 10:9
prayer: 5 hour (spread over 3 days)
Daniel prays for his nation. He knows the time for the remnant to return to Jerusalem is coming soon. He prays for forgiveness and for the Lord to act and not delay the return of the exiles.
The rest of these 3 entries occupy about 15 pages in my private journal; some written in the middle of the night. Not appropriate for the blog. So I won’t be posting them.
